Free Write 1.15.2013

I have so much to do. I have to pay my car payment, riley's preschool, clean our house, i hate the dishes,  i left wet clothes in the washer, there is SO MUCH LAUNDRY to fold. Riley's room is a complete wreck, she has so many toys. why is her birthday the week after christmas. like we need anymore toys. I need a bigger house, but were getting new carpet, why should we move!!!! its just too small. Rileys room is crazy that girl needs TWO rooms. maybe she needs less stuff! but she has so many people who love her and like to spoil her....I dont know what to think. we need to get the paint off the porch too, my landlord would not like that at all. and i need to tell him about the heater making monster noises . I need to finish working on the schedule at work, how am i going to do the associate s schedule, work full time, be a mom and do well in my classes this semseter?? thank god its almost spring time, thats motivating! this summer we need to go camping - I dont care if its too hot. Im going, ill go by myself if I have to!!! I wonder how mags is doing at school She always takes on too much . I hope she doesnt do that this semester.... we are so excited for our vacation this summer. theocean. riley will be so cute in her little swimsuit !! she is sort of a beach baby. its going to be so fun. I have a lot of planning to do and I have to figure out how much money I can spend on our trip. Shoudl we drive? Should we fly? Could Riley handle being in the car for 10 or more hours??? COULD I handle that???? I wish it was warmer outside, i thnk Riley is going crazzy being inside so much. But she is getting so good at writing her name!!! and her numbers , and sounding out letters and even a few words. Im so proud of her.I cant believe she is four!!!!!!!!!!!! How did we make it?? the first few years were so hard, on our own, but we did it. Good job us. Thank you Panera for my job that has let me provide for her these last few years...If I didn't have that job I dont want to even think about where we would be right now......thats scary. Its motivating to think of how well we have done....I wonder how much better things are going to get for us..